You said love is painful It really is It hurts to know that we love each other but want different things I'm uncertain about children and marriage You are certain about children and marriage This makes us uncertain about us You believe that I will always choose me and that makes you uncomfortable. You don't … Continue reading Love Hurts
Category: My Journey
White Roommate: Fight, Freeze, Flight
It started in my Body A reaction to something she said 'I only date black men.' Body flinched My Mouth betrayed me by staying shut My Mind rationalized the comment telling me that everyone has a type But my Brain knew Because as comments came, my Brain sent signals to my soul It heightened my … Continue reading White Roommate: Fight, Freeze, Flight
While I sleep
I see you look at me while I sleep You wonder what lies behind my eyes What could I be dreaming about? You wonder if I dream about you As you watch me sleep in peace so beautifully, You wonder if you bring me joy As you admire my soft brown skin, You wonder if … Continue reading While I sleep
It’s Love.
I'm in love for the first time. And.... It's exhilarating. It's scary. It's powerful. It's joyous. It's kind. It's painful. It's pleasureful. It's sweet. It's passionate. It's spiritual. It's vulnerable. It's sexy. It's patient. It's uncomfortable. It's enlightening. It's forgiving. It's intense. It's peaceful. It's gentle. It's encompassing. It's wonderful. It's overwhelming. It's exciting. It's … Continue reading It’s Love.
Love Letter to Myself
I went to a Galentine's Day party on Sunday and the hostess gave us these cute sheets of paper to write love letters to ourselves. I finally wrote mine today and I wanted to share it. Dear Esther, I love you. I will always love you. I will love you when you're happy and when … Continue reading Love Letter to Myself
Happy 2019!
It's the last year of the decade. If you think about it, it's kind of symbolic. For some, this symbolism will represent a culmination of things. Perhaps, the end of their crazy twenties, the bitter divorce of a decade long marriage. Maybe this year someone will finally understand their purpose. Another may reach a financial … Continue reading Happy 2019!
30 years grateful
I am forever grateful to God for allowing me to live 30 years! There are many people who don't make it to their third decade. The universe wants me alive for a reason. Where should I start? Age 29, the last year of my 20's. It felt like it. I experienced the classic dating pitfalls, … Continue reading 30 years grateful
April Showers bring May Flowers
It is pouring outside. It's one of those rainy days that make you snooze your alarm clock and crawl under the covers as the rain drops lull you back to dreamland. The overcast grey colored skies can be dreadful especially after a long winter. But it is a reminder that good things are going to … Continue reading April Showers bring May Flowers
Grateful for Snow Days!
I'm so happy to have two snow days in a row. The universe has unexpectedly blessed me with a much needed 5 day weekend. Monday, I took a sick day because it is my God-given right. Yesterday, my college closed due to inclement weather and today the school decided to give it's employees another … Continue reading Grateful for Snow Days!
Laugh Out Loud
A few weeks ago, I had a very funny moment. In fact, an embarrassing moment. Actually, I'm sure Issa Rae would say an "Awkward Black Girl" moment. Let me share. On a cold Friday morning, I got out of my bed feeling relieved. "It's Friday! Yay!" I thought. I was particularly excited because I was … Continue reading Laugh Out Loud
Esther Yvette 